same old, same old...

i just had a good toothache last night. i was anxious about the coming party i'm going to attend to later(no interest at all).
i don't feel anything special today. i hate this scumb** walking around our apartment, i mean, "what a waste of your life...and all that's left for you." i find it difficult to understand issue people throw at me... :( i'm being caught off guard most of the time and i get tongue tied. hm.. is there any way? i dont think so. same old, same old...